My new years resolutions.

Well first of all I would like to wish everyone a Happy New year. There are alot of things that I hope to change this coming year. For one I am going to quit drinking. Next I am going to quit smoking. Come hell or high water I am going to get our finacial situation under control. I am going to spend more time with family , and quit living like a recluse all the time. I am going to try to be less negative about things even when I have those days that everything I touch turns to crap. I would like to start working out and get myself in shape. These are just a few of the things I would like to change , If I listed them all I would be here till 2010 lol. So to all In the blogosphere have a safe and happy New year!

rest in peace suzanne .

Suzanne (liquid) horne, Was such a lovely , smart , artistic person .I do not understand depression totally even though i know I have it. She has two beautiful children , both of them seem healthy and strong . How someone could have so much love around them and not see it. My wife michelle and her were getting pretty close , suzanne was going to help us when we re-newed our vows in the coming spring . She said " I have friends that owe me favors " lol . she was an absolute brilliant and beautiful woman , and although i did not get to know her as much as I would have liked to have, simply because she is was a smartass similiar to myself .I hope she has found peace in herself and I hope someone is holding her and keeping her safe for all time . May you rest in peace sweet suzanne , And remember you were, and forever will be loved by all In your family and your other family the blogosphere . rest in peace .

Music Monday --- Three Day's Grace

Three Days Grace --- Pain

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A tribute and to educate others

Aug 13, 1966 to Dec. 24, 2008

I am totally mad!

I went to the store earlier today, weather was bad . I should have stayed home ,But dumbass me went anyway. I was about a block away from home , my car slid into a curb , Now my car will not steer at all. Brand new car 2008 chevy aveo . I have only had it since may . What away to close out 2008. This year has sucked for me and our family . You guys already know about the summer events, We started bankrupt process , next day our son broke his hand. She went to doc the otherday cause she has a lump on her neck. The doc said it was a fat deposit and wants it removed. So we are going to get it fixed. I hope 2009 is better, But right now the " light at the end of the tunnel" I cannot see. Right now I am at a loss of what to do , Ihave a decent job and make decent money but.. Not enough to make it when bad things happen. I hope things work out soon, My sanity can only take so much.It is almost like the world is closing in around me. I try , and try and the Tires are just spinning in place. If you all have any ideas , They would be greatly appreciated.

Music Monday -- Black Crows

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Almost that time

Well folks It is almost that time . The road to the Superbowl . There is one more week of the regular Nfl season left , and this year there are alot of surprise teams that made it to the playoffs this year. My Indy colts squeaked into it by beating Jacksonville thursday night .Next week the colts play the AFC south champions the Tennessee Titans . The colts have held that title for five seasons It should be a great game. Today the Titans take on the Steelers I hope they beat the titans up pretty good before next weeks game lol. Well all have a good day I will post my Music Monday selection later tonight .

What the Heck?!

What in the hell is going on in this country. The Illinois governor tries to sell Barack Obamas senate seat , And the state supreme court does not want to pursue the case ?! I mean we all know politicians are bought and paid for ,but damn Why make it obvious.the politicians are so worried now about what other countries think about us , They need to be worrying about what is going on here. If things keep going the way they are , We will be a third world nation within the next 5 yrs. unemployment is at the highest level in decades , more and more companies are either shutting down , or moving operations over seas. I am sorry folks only so many people can work at Walmart, or Mcdonald's. The people in our country need to take a stand against the corruption and stupidity that is going on . Not be silent make our voices heard for change . All of the politicans now just tell us what we want to here to shut us up . Well... look where that has got us. And That is the way I see it.

Music Monday -- My Chemical Romance

I like this song , and the theatrics of the video.

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history plus good news

my wife and I have been married for the last 14yrs. We have been through alot more than most people that have been married twice as long in some cases. Not long after We got married she got pregnant , Which ended in a miscarriage. Our apartment caught fire a few months later and we were forced to live in another one but only a cockroach invested dump, One night I almost got shot by gangbangers that were running the streets near our apartment. We then moved raised our son , not always the best way we could have. In 2003 We were not getting along to well and a mutual friend of ours introduced us to a friend;s daughter , Who happened to be the biggest mistake of my life. She fed on the fact my wife and I wasnt getting along , and pretty much suckered me into sleeeping with her and eventually throw michelle out. We did separate for a time and I will regret it forever. We reconsiled and , not too long after We got pregnant with our daughter. We had her oct,14,2004. After pregnancy she dealt with postpartom depression which started to cause a rift between us. She eventually got over that . We have had fights off and on all couples do if you don't somethin wrong trust me. This past summer I was working alot of hours , so my moods were not always very good. For vacation this july I took her to New orleans , It is an awsome city. I went back to work still working alot of overtime . Tired and irritable alot , I admit I lost focus on family , and I regret . My wife was begging for attention and she found it online . She was on Facebook , and 4 guys were paying alot of attention to her ,and she got carried away and flirted with them and sent them bad photos. I consider it cheating on me , She believes it was a tease that went to far . I am not posting this to make her feel guilty for that . I am at fault for alot of things . For one I have a drinking problem , which she absolutely abhores which I intend to fix. All I ask from her is honesty and support and love.I have had to watch her self destruct for almost 3 years between 2005- 2006 . she found her Mom dead, and Her Dad. That is a hell of alot to take for anyone. Well now all have our messed up history now for the good part. Despite all both of our mess ups We have prooven we love eachother . We are going to renew our vows and make a fresh start. I love her more than life itself , and I know I would be lost without her , She is everything to me . I repeat this was not to make her feel bad about anything , We have both both screwed up big time . We fix our finacial situation and be honest with eachother at all times , I know our marriage with be unbreakable. I love you Michelle With all my heart and soul.

Music Monday -- Saving Abel

Saving Abel--Addicted

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yessssss!

Sorry for those who disagree with me , But I am happy as hell OJ was sentenced to 15yrs today. I believe he should have got a hell of alot longer, but at least he is finally gonna pay for screwing up.The famous people always believe they are above the law, and alot of times the justice system prooves it. If you do the crime ,you should do the time no matter what your finacial status is , or your popularity . If you think back to the time of Abraham Lincoln " all men were created equal" , How long has this country still been treating the poor, or even the middle class like we owe the rich something. the crooked CEO's of "big business" giving themselves bonuses then having the balls to ask congress for a bailout. The politicians have got to change the way they run this country or we will be a third world country like alot of the mid east is today. And That is the way I see it.

A little more about me

Well I have posted in earlier posts I am a big horror movie buff. But I also love the star wars saga . The classic story of good vs evil is always good.Here is me as a Sith lord.Then we Have The other movies I liked growing up, Batman , spider man , and of course superman.Then We have the recent classics Pirates of the caribbean.thanks speedy that site is hilarious.